I have a problem and it’s killing me. I have become addicted to something, the same thing that makes me sick. Television and movies are the drug, I see a character I find cool or funny or that has any common characteristic as myself and I become them, for those two hours. I become them so much that when they feel pain, I feel pain. If it’s a movie things usually work out for the character, if they don’t, I get depressed. TV shows are worse, today I spent 12 hours watching Lost. I have the first season on dvd. The problem for me is that I cannot go to sleep at night not know that everything is going to be alright, that my favourite character will indeed survive and get the girl. If everything’s not alright in the episode, I will watch the next and the next until I know that everything will be ok. The OC is also killing me. Im ready for episode 11 of season three but no one has it. I wait everyweek to get that episode so that I can try to feel complete, without it im empty and alone.

I think I have personality disorders, more than one. I took an online personality test, some of you have already seen the results. introverted, irritable, feels invisible, observer, depressed, does not enjoy leadership, reveals little about self, dislikes large parties, feels undesirable, does not like to stand out, submissive, suspicious, emotionally sensitive, not a thrill seeker, solitude loving, likes silence, fragile, second guesses self, negative, unadventurous, fearful, weird, focuses on people's hidden motives, paranoid, phobic, dependent, cautious, avoidant, semi intellectual   Some of them are right, some are not.